She asked! We said YES!!!!

Well....as of February 12th...we are officially an "expecting couple"...waiting for a child to be born who has been growing in our hearts for years!

We went lunch with Jenn, to talk some more...about details that were too uncomfortable to speak about on the first meeting.  We laughed....we joked....we hugged good-bye....and she officially asked us to become the parents of her baby girl, who is to be born in June.

To be honest....we left lunch and I asked Chris..."Didn't you expect our reaction to be different"?  I mean....I had always dreamt about this day.  The day a birthmom picked us with whom to place her child for adoption.  I just knew...I was going to cry, be absolutely giddy with emotion and delite, honored and humbled....and just plain....stupid crazy excited.

None of that happened!  Nope...it was like..."I want y'all to adopt my child"...and we were like "Wow Jenn, thanks....what an honor.  Of course we will!"  "Do you want dessert or more tea?"

We talked over the next few days several times about our "anti-climactic" reaction.  Was this normal?  Did it mean something?  Why wouldn't we have just burst into tears?

Conclusion:  We are jaded!  We are guarded!  We have protective walls in place!  All due to foster parenting.  Now don't get me wrong...these protective measures are not a bad thing.  And it doesn't mean that you shield yourself or prevent yourself from loving the child in your home....it just means you proceed...in EVERYTHING....with caution.  You are prepared....to love deeply, letting your heart stretch, and grow....giving it "growth stretch marks"....knowing that you may have to later sooth those painful stretch marks with "Mederma or other such cream" when the child you have loved....leaves your home (or in the case of private adoption....never enters your home).

We are excited about what's to come!  God's plan....as it CURRENTLY appears....may have our family growing from 2 to 4 by the end of June.  We remain cautious....as to say that we fully know or understand God's will in our lives....would be ridiculous!  But...we are willing to do anything, follow Him anywhere!  So until he directs us otherwise...we are on the journey to PARENTHOOD OF 2!!!