Anxiety Much????

Wow....holy wow!  So last Thursday, I went to the doctor with Jenn (birth mom for baby girl).  During the visit, her doctor said "Well, let's get this on the calendar."  He called the hospital right then, and scheduled her to be induced on Friday, June 14th.  So, in less than two weeks, Chris and I will accompany Jenn to the hospital at 7:30 in the morning, and sometime after that, our little girl will be born.  When we left, Jenn said..."You looked a little freaked out in there!"

Freaked out.....Ummm...YES!  I'm a little freaked out.  Not because of the induction date....not because of the fact that in less than two weeks our family will be growing.....not because this dream I have had for so long is finally becoming a reality.

I'm freaked out....because....well....I'm JUST FREAKED OUT!  Actually, it all stems from the want and desire to be the best mom I can be.  Like I mentioned in a previous post, these moms (Jenn and Tank's mom) are counting on me.

I keep praying to God....over and over again...."God, are you sure you have equipped Chris and I to be parents?  Not just parents, but good parents.  Do we have the skills to care for children? Not just their physical, everyday needs, but their long term, emotional and spiritual needs.  Do we have the resources to answer questions....when the going gets tough?  Not just the everyday...who, what, when, where, and why questions.  Are we strong enough to weather the storms ahead....some of which may be fierce and ugly?  Not just the small rain squalls that sprinkle in and out of our year.  God...ARE YOU SURE!?!?!?".

His answer....(so perfectly taken from this morning's read in Jesus Calling by Sarah Young)

Welcome challenging times as opportunities to trust Me.  You have Me beside you and My Spirit within you, so no set of circumstances is too much for you to handle.  When the path before you is dotted with difficulties, beware of measuring your strength against those challenges.  That calculation is certain to riddle you with anxiety.  Without Me, you wouldn't make it past the first hurdle!

The way to walk through demanding days is to grip My hand tightly and stay close in communication with Me.  Let your thoughts and spoken words be richly flavored with trust and thankfulness.  Regardless of the day's problems, I can keep you in perfect Peace as you stay close to Me.

I can do everything through him who gives me strength - Philippians 4:13

You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you - Isaiah 26:3

So....the stage is set...the day is picked....the time is in the books.  We are having a baby!  And through God's promise and strength....we are ready!